Where Has the Time Went?

Where has the time went? We keep living our lives and then we sometimes stop and say, “I can’t believe he’s gone. I can’t believe he’s been gone so long already.” I’ve said it before…in so many ways it seems like it was just yesterday you came rolling up to see us; flying in, on the move, never being still. And in other ways, it’s been so long since I’ve felt the warmth of your arms around me, giving me one of those infamous hugs or hearing your voice on the other end of the phone. How do we get beyond all those little things that are so important in our memories, but sometimes haunt us? We keep living our lives, that’s how. We keep on keeping on, knowing that is the cycle of life, knowing that is what BJ would want for every single one of us.

At moments I’m sad to know you will never see your daughter, little brother, nieces and nephews grow up, that you will never see your brothers home and piece of God’s country outside the hustle and bustle of the city, that you will never help me transform the rundown fixer upper to my place of refuge, and that I will never hear your voice on the other end of my phone.  You will watch us from your spot in Heaven where you know no sorrow, where you will wait for us to join you, and where we know you live eternally.