May is Full of Promise

38 years ago, I was anticipating the arrival of my first child. Not knowing then, they he would teach me to love unconditionally, put others first, and how to grieve gratefully. Grateful for the 35+ years I had him on Earth, on the other end of the phone, and in my darkest moments. BJ, I miss you every moment in every day, but I am learning to live life with you in Heaven. It’s the most difficult and most painful thing I have ever had to do. I write this as tears well up in my eyes and flow down my cheeks, as I feel each drop roll off my chin. I will never stop missing you and I will never stop living the life I am intended to live…until we meet again.

Today, I am grateful for the good things God has in store for me; bringing promise to May. I get to spend part of today with my sister and next week I anticipate finally closing on a home; my “Fixer Upper”. I am excited to put my touches on this home and restore it back to the beauty it once was. May is full of promise, indeed…for me and my fixer upper!

I pray for those fumbling through their journey of grief  and that they will find a way to keep living their life. That they will find hope in God’s promises, joy in each memory they have of their loved one, and a promise for a brighter tomorrow. Grief isn’t the end, it’s the beginning. The beginning of a new you and a journey that will take you down a road with more turns that you could imagine. You will find yourself consumed in loss, stricken with sorrow, tears that won’t stop, and then…you will round another corner and learn to pick yourself back up, find a reason for going on, and know that NOW isn’t forever. In the blink of an eye you will be reunited with the very person you are grieving over today. Take time for you, take time to process, and get out of bed each day. My baby has been gone more than two and a half years; it feels like yesterday and it feels like forever, but in the blink of an eye I’ll be with him again and that is FOREVER.

God’s blessings over each of you today and always!

Forever You Will Be