Gaining Perspective

Occasionally, but not very often, I find myself going back through my blog posts and wondering, “What made that one so popular? How come so many people read that one? What is it that people are getting from this post?” Some that have been read 150 or 200 times, I will read again. And then, I get it. I cry again at what I wrote, and I remember what I was feeling as I wrote it. So, even if it’s been a year, it still makes me emotional. I can also see how it might relate to anyone grieving and at any part of their journey. That just hit me today, as I reread My World Would Be So Different and For the LOVE of Bacon!. Although these two posts are quite different, I can see how they might bring comfort to someone grieving and that they might look for the joy amid their sorrow.

Grief is a terrible thing to endure. It leaves you with many questions along the way, but only one that is constant; why? I suppose I will never really know why we lost BJ so soon. I do know his presence impacted many lives and many more that I didn’t even know about. As a mom, all I can do is find joy in that and carry-on. Some days are harder than others, some days more tears flow than others, and some days I am flooded with more happy memories than others. But, every day is a good day and I’m living my life; which is exactly what BJ would want. I know he smiles when he sees his family with his daughter, his friends visiting other friends that are connected because of him, and at the amazement and wonderment of his growing daughter and all that she is. BJ loved his family, he loved his friends, and he loved his daughter most of all. If we can keep these things in perspective of the ones we lose, I believe we can navigate our journey of grief.