Friday, June 23, 2017

Mixed Emotions and a Campfire


Today, I am headed to the "Clear Lake Campout". A campout with BJ's friends. A campout I have never went on and a campout he rarely missed.  Last year was the first year he went alone as it was shortly after the divorce stuff began. BJ was a mess. He told me many things about that trip, but they were personal to him and they will stay that way.  BJ has a wonderful group of friends, all across the state of Oregon and beyond. I have had a bonfire with his Central Oregon peeps, I am now camping out with his St. Helens peeps (that's what I call the Hall et al group! LOL), and in a month I will be hanging out in Colorado with his (oh Lord, what do I even call Kyle!?)...well his little mini me of the later years. I say that because in his pre-adult life his baby brother, Bryan, was "baby BJ" or "baby nickel", as their friends called him. I am blessed to have all these "kids" in my life and so very grateful that they welcome me as "mom", "mama", "momma", and "ma". 

In the spring of 2016, BJ and I talked about me and Little D going camping with "them" that summer. But when divorce chaos arose that didn't happen. I am thankful for our cross country trip to South Carolina to visit Kyle, Allison, and Baby John though! I am blessed that his last vacation was shared with me and I will treasure that time forever.

I haven't camped in a tent…in…well…a good 20+ years! Dillon and I have never tent camped together. We have been in a yurt, teepee, and a cabin or two…but never a tent. If one of us doesn't come home, please forgive and bless the survivor!!! 😎 LOL

I am excited for this campout. I have no idea what to expect, but I anticipate it to be much like it was when Bill and I took BJ and Bryan camping with Uncle Jack and Aunt Terrie…and all the others we drug along with us at one time or another. Just a bunch of good people getting together for a little R & R along the lake! Oh heck…who am I kidding…I pretty much expect it to be a two day "let it all out and do what you want" time for mama cause she doesn't have to drive anywhere! She'll be with God, nature, and family…let the good times roll!  I imagine there will be stories of BJ and the "crazy" he brought to camp. I even imagine there might be some tears at his absence this year. But it's all good…we're with family,  we're loved, and the more tears the merrier when you're grieving!

Stay tuned to hear how this adventure goes.
Their "towel hero"! 

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